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November 1st, 2008
01:43 am - Coming Soon
I'm coming back. I need to write again.
Just not tonight...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/tired.gif) exhausted
Current Music: blessed silence
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July 10th, 2006
08:16 pm - A Quick Post (More Later, I Promise)
I got a raise! I've definitely earned it. Look at me, being all responsible and shit.
"You may be crazy, but you're really good and I don't think we could find anyone else like you." -My Boss
PS: If the only way you know how to express passion is through sex then your life probably doesn't have much meaning. Just a thought.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/working.gif) accomplished
Current Music: Paganini: 24 Caprices - Itzhak Perlman
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May 22nd, 2006
07:42 pm - Oh, the HORROR!
I finally have visual documentation of the horror that I must daily endure.
( Death awaits you behind this cut. Agonizing death... )
That's all for now.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/cheerful.gif) amused
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May 15th, 2006
10:35 pm - Confusion Setting In
The rain just came thundering down. It was quiet in my room and then suddenly it got very loud. Like the ocean. Wow, it sure knows how to rain here.
I told her I'm on the verge. "The verge of what?" she's supposed to ask. Oh, for fucks sake... Do I have to do everything myself?
I'm on the verge.
*My best Eva* "The verge of what?"
Ecstasy. Misery. Hey, it's a fine line.
Some fuckwad I know wished me a happy mothers day. Twice. What, just because I have a uterus that means I'll one day be a mother? That's the stupidest thing I've ever fucking heard. Note to self: Get a hysterectomy.
And why are people so blown away when I say that I never want to get married or have children? Like that's the point of life or something. How fucking primitive: "Urgh! Let's mate! Me have nice cave for you to live in!" To be fair, I am open to the very slight possibility that I might one day find someone worthy of marrying(and by worthy I mean someone patient/stubborn enough to keep loving me through all my moods), I'm just not set on it or anything.
I know the last two paragraphs seem bitchy and cynical, I just get so frustrated by people who are so damn conventional.
( Vivaldi, the Kreutzer, and my own progress(if you can call it that) )
If you have any questions I've got got some answers. They just might not be the answers to your questions. Sorry.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/indescribable.gif) indescribable
Current Music: "Winter" - Antonio Vivaldi
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April 30th, 2006
11:34 am - The Recital
So, last night was my first violin recital. It was nice because it was a casual and supportive affair. I didn't ass everything up like I was afraid I would. Someone put a few bottles of wine on the snack table, which I thought was a splendid thing to do.
After the recital I accosted the pianist, demanding, ok, beseeching her to give me lessons. She looked surprised for a moment (I don't think she's used to Ed's violin students pouncing on her) but then really pleased when she saw how passionate I am about learning to play the piano (I can be a bit theatrical when excited).
All these lessons are getting expensive. Well, it's not like I have to eat every day, right? ;)
After all of that one of the other violinists suggested we go out to eat and he treated me to dinner at this lovely french restaurant.
I had such a wonderful time and I got to meet a lot of new people, so I'm really glad I made myself go.
That's all for now!
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Air on a G string - Bach
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April 29th, 2006
02:21 pm - The Recital of DOOM
It's happening. My first recital. I am not wetting myself. I will go to this recital. I am by far the best in my class and I WILL go and I WILL play. Who cares if people from his more advanced classes are there and they play more advanced music as if to taunt me and my beginner status. I'm not scared. Not at all.
Oh god, I'm going to be ill... Heh, I'm such a jittery fucker.
In an effort to calm myself, I'm going to post more Mina pictures. She was being disgustingly cute last night:
( My Wilhemina )
I want to at least practice for an hour so I should go. I would practice for longer but this is a day just like any other day and I am not going to get myself freaked out. Not one bit.
EDIT: Ok, that was more like two hours, but I half learned a new song. Good times!
EDIT(again): Ok, now it's 2 and a half hours, but I completely learned a new song. I rock.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/worried.gif) nervous
Current Music: Waltz Op. 39, No.5 - Johannes Brahms
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April 24th, 2006
07:49 am - Kamikazes Are My Friends
Any night that ends with people sleeping on my bed, the rug next to my bed, and the living room floor is a success as far as I'm concerned. And any hangover that ends with me eating prime rib and sweet potatoes isn't such a bad hangover, either.
Note to self:
Never play the violin while intoxicated unless your friends are so wasted as to actually be impressed by drunken, beginner violin playing. Such as was the case on Saturday night.
Good times.
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Grande Valse brillante, op.18 - Chopin
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April 16th, 2006
05:50 pm - Mina Wants Me to Give Up the Violin
Hello! Since I'm getting pretty serious about music from now on I'm going to tag all my music related posts and put them behind a cut because I'm very thoughtful and I don't want to bore people who aren't interested in my progress! I doubt anyone but Eva is really interested anyway.
( A 'Derrr' Kind of Moment )
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Song of the Wind, Me
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April 11th, 2006
07:29 pm - He sat next to me and I almost giggled like a school-girl
My violin was a piece of crap. I said so when I posted a picture of it. In any case, I was practicing and I heard a disturbing noise and guess what? Just guess.
It cracked. I've never abused the thing in any way, except for calling it a "bastard" on occasion, and it just started coming apart at the bottom.
I had planned on saving up and buying a nicer one next month but this changed things a bit. I have a lesson on Thursday so I needed to buy a new one right away. So, I called everyone I know begging for money and my sister Vanessa and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) madminx came through for me and sent me funds. Thank you Minxy! I'd be dead now if it wasn't for you! I shall name my violin "Minxy" in your honor! ;)
I ordered my new violin yesterday and it arrived today in good condition and I am so excited I can barely contain myself! Look!
( My new violin )
Work is good, I'm tired, and my violin kicks ass.
I just realized today that I still have pictures of me and my ex-boyfriend in my Livejournal photo album. Yikes! I completely forgot about that damn thing. Hopefully I'll have the energy to go fix all that soon. I also forgot about my website. I bought myself a domain name and everything and then I forgot about it.
I despise my cat. She says things like "Mah!" and she sniffs me with her cold, wet little nose every time she sees me.
Some sleep would be nice...
I'm still not in love, thank God. Not one bit in love. Not even a tiny bit. Heh...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/excited.gif) ecstatic
Current Music: Polonaise in A flat major, op.53 - Frederic Chopin
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April 4th, 2006
08:07 pm - A Goodbye of Sorts
There I was, trying to describe wind
and the sensation of falling to a fish.
What do they know, anyway?
Then again, what do I know about rip tides?
We fail each other.
I am truly on my own here
and fingers that should curl 'round my arm
and hoist me up
push at me or merely draw back and hover.
They cannot fathom my mind
or my intentions.
I will claw my way to the finish line,
there is no doubt about that,
but it will HURT
and I will shiver a little with each kick
and cruel word that fate deals me.
You see, I am truly all alone here
and I have decided:
I will cease to be a prisoner
if only by ceasing to acknowledge the cage.
I will be alone because I choose to be,
I will be broke because I spend irresponsibly,
I will be restless because I accept nothing,
and I will cry because I just feel like it.
And though I'm sorry to leave you in my dust
I am not sorry to spare you
20 kinds of discontent.
I fail you.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/moody.gif) restless
Current Music: Symphony No.7, Beethoven
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April 2nd, 2006
10:09 pm - I LOVE YOU INTERNET!
I'm officially back. I got the internet hooked up at my apartment and now I can spend some quality (debatable) time online! Actually, I really do spend most of my time online researching things that interest me. I'll start off looking up one thing and I'll encounter a word I don't know the meaning of or a person I haven't heard of and I'll be off on another search. I can go for hours. Yeah. Anyway, I'm happy!
Work is still going well and my violin lessons are going well and I'm happy to say that my enthusiasm isn't waning. I always worry that it will because I throw so much of myself into things at first that I quickly end up emptied out. This is just so important to me. So damn beautiful. My, I'm rambly aren't I?
It's picture time!
( Look at me go! )
I got bored so I decided to take some pictures of my cat, since she was being especially cute today. But for your own sake I would suggest that you do not click on the link below.
( DOOM! DOOM! DOOM! )
In other news, I spent an irresponsible amount of money on a digital piano! I'm so damn excited and I can't wait to start taking lessons, though it might have to wait a few months since the violin comes first.
( Super Happy Fun Time! )
Ok, that's all for now! I should really get to bed since I have to work in the morning.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Fantaisie-Impromptu In C Sharp Minor - Op.66, Chopin
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March 27th, 2006
12:30 pm - I Cut My Hair!
I chopped off all of my hair. I was getting restless and bored so I hacked it all off. Look!
( My New Look )
I love it! It so much easier to take care of and I get hit on less by sleazy guys, probably because I'm more boyish now. Good times. And men are idiots. And I'm certainly not in love with a man. Nope. Not even a little. Shut up madminx.
Also, at the request of Minxy, I'm posting a picture of my violin. It's a piece of shit, but it's my precious piece of shit!
( You should hear what it said to me last night... )
I'm so damn happy. I'm teaching myself to play the Can Can because it amuses the hell out of me and I can't learn enough about my chosen instrument. Next I'm going to take piano lessons. I'm going to have to save up some money though... That means no more irresponsible spending... How boring.
I hope everyone is doing well! I'm not in love!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/hyper.gif) bouncy
Current Music: It's Good to Be In Love, Frou Frou
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March 20th, 2006
01:32 pm - Past, Present, and Future(?)
Wow. I'm glad you're being so mature about all of this. Haha.
My regret level is going into the negatives. Most impressive.
Current Mood: I can't help but be amused
Current Music: No. 9 "Kreutzer"- Adagio sostenuto - Presto, Beethoven
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March 15th, 2006
12:58 pm - A quick update and a picture!
The violin lessons are going well and my finger tips hurt from practicing so much. Good times. I'm teaching myself to read music. I'm obsessed.
I finally got a picture from my birthday celebration! Look!
( Birthday Fun )
That's all for now! Once I get the internet at home I'll be able to post and reply more often.
Current Mood: cheerful
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March 1st, 2006
01:40 pm - A Violin and Some (bad) Italian
Quick update!
I've been busting my ass at work and yesterday I managed to shoot and retouch EVERYTHING. I'm so amazing. Seriously. I'm done with today's work too unless we get in more samples, which is likely. Good times though.
I'm taking violin lessons. I've been playing for almost a week now and I'm so nervous and happy and excited. When I told my dad I can play Twinkle Twinkle Little Star he got so damn excited that I just had to smile. He kept reminding me that I have to start somewhere, since I kept complaining that I hate being bad at things. So I practice twice a day and I think about music constantly. It's a beautiful distraction to have. madminx better hurry up and get a violin or I'm going to get way ahead of her! :P
There's really not that much going on with me. I'm finally caught up financially after the big move. There's still stuff I have to buy for the room and as soon I get it all set up I'll post pictures.
I'm trying to teach myself Italian and it's a real bitch. I'm good at pronouncing the words but what sucks is that I don't have a teacher who can answer my questions. Maybe if I can save up I'll actually take a class.
I'm not in love. Really.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Violin sonata No. 1 in D major, Beethoven
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February 10th, 2006
01:42 pm - Rings and Things
I finally took a picture of my ring! Don't judge me by this picture; we'd just bought a new camera and I hadn't yet figured out all the settings. Isn't it precious?
( My Ring! )
It's times like this that I really love my job. Yesterday I was working on a project and basically spent the whole day drawing and listening to Beethoven. I tried a little Bach but I wasn't in that mood. Anyway, here's a little sketch I did for one of the themes(keep in mind it's a very rough sketch):
( A Sketch )
Tonight it's dinner and drinks(mostly drinks) with the girls and tomorrow it's a hangover and hopefully some school. I'm going to go register so I can start taking Italian classes. And as soon as I get my tax return I'm going to buy a violin and then I'm really going to have to budget myself so I can pay for the lessons.
That's all for now!
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Violiln sonata No. 9, Beethoven
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February 6th, 2006
12:54 pm - Happy Fun Day
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! YAY! PRESENTS!
The girls at work are taking me out for dinner and drinks on Friday and it's going to be GOOD.
I want madminx to move to New York. That'd be a neat birthday present! Come on, Eva! Move to New York! We'll go on the roof and drink cheap wine and play the violin (badly) and say the most ridiculous things to each other!
Holy shit I'm in a good mood. And thanks for the post, maddogallen!
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Piano sonata #8 "Pathetique", Beethoven
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February 4th, 2006
02:07 pm - The Prodigal Son
I think I'm going mad. A little.
Anyway, so much has happened. I wasn't finding a new apartment and time was running out. Then market week rolled in and I was staying late every day and working on the weekends. Finally I broke down and cried to my boss, Sarah, about everything that was going on. She comforted me and assured me everything would be ok. Then she emailed some people and it turned out that the co-worker of a girl she knows was looking for a roommate. I met up with the girl and it went well.
I am now living in a big, beautiful room that has three large windows overlooking Steinway Street, which, for those of you who don't know, is a right busy little street with every store imaginable and too many little restaurants to count. Wow, I love my new place. The living room is big, the kitchen is a good size, and if you climb out the kitchen window there's a ladder that leads to the roof. 1,500 dollars a month this place costs, but it's well worth it. Heh, I'm so broke right now. Moving is expensive.
I'll post pictures as soon as I can.
I've fallen madly in love with Beethoven. The violin sonatas especially. Violin Sonata #9 owns my soul. I need to go out and buy myself more CD's. My birthday is on Monday; I owe myself some gifts!
I'm going to go out and explore my new neighborhood now (despite the gloomy weather).
Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: Piano Sonata #14, Beethoven
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January 6th, 2006
12:42 pm - A Survey
I know, I'm a little late!
( End of year survey )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/artistic.gif) artistic
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January 4th, 2006
02:13 pm - Better Than Fine
A quick update to tell you what's going on with me!
A LOT has happened. Work is going really well. I recently got promoted with a nice raise and I'm now working full time in the digital production department. Good fucking times. I kick ass.
I'm still single and despite a few lonely moments I'm loving it. I've always been a very private person and I find that I'm starting to be myself more now that I'm alone. This is really kind of a new experience for me and I'm absolutely fascinated and enthusiastic about it all.
I spent my first Christmas/New Years alone. I thought it would depress me but it didn't. They were just days, like any other days and I did as I liked and it was good. I made myself some homemade beef stew and bought a whole pumpkin pie for myself, which I'm still trying to finish off. I swear, good food affects me chemically. The people at work laugh at me now because whenever we all go out to eat (and it's always at nice restaurants) I become ecstatic and want to try a bite of everything.
I'm going to be moving out because the roommates are having a baby and the apartment just isn't big enough for us all. I saw it coming, of course, though I must confess I had hoped I'd have more than a months notice to relocate myself. I'm trying not to stress out about it because I don't handle stress well, and there is always the possibility, however slim, that Eva may move out here. If not I have a few other options and I'm curious as to what will end up happening. I'm not going to stress. I'm not going to stress.
I bought myself a ring. I decided that I don't need a guy to buy my shiny things! It's a beautiful little teardrop shaped emerald set in white gold with three tiny diamonds on either side of it. GORGEOUS. And so delicate. Perfect for my long, skinny fingers. I'd like to buy a ruby next. Or maybe a sapphire... I also bought myself a brand new computer! I'm so happy! I've earned these things.
My cat has worms. That's all I'm going to say about that because the topic just makes me twitchy.
That's all for now, though I could go on and on. I've got to get back to work. Sadly, it's not often that I actually have time to use the internet at work!
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Maps, Yeah Yeah Yeahs
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